I'm not sure exactly what it was but from the moment I woke up today something was a little off. Did I not sleep enough? Did I eat something funny before bed? Or did my intuition just know it was going to be a rough Monday? I was super clumsy, tripping, falling, spilling, burning, what felt like everything I touched. It seemed like for every mess I cleaned another ten popped up.
Anyone else ever feel this way? After a few hours of frustration I finally just sat down and prayed. I was actually so discouraged and frustrated that I had tears in my eyes. It felt like praying was my only option. Praying was my last resort. And then it hit me...
I'm not perfect....and that's Ok.
The irony of it all is that God created me this way. His perfect little deliberately flawed masterpiece. And while praying and trying to let go of all the overwhelming thoughts of everything I'm trying to accomplish right now in my life...the Lord quietly took my hand and reminded me to be still. Be still in His simple embrace. That was all he was really asking of me today.
I wondered then how my day would have been different if I started it with the prayer. Why do I wait to go to Him as my last resort? Why don't I start with Him instead?
Holly
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This song by Jenn Johnson, Bill Johnson's daughter-in-law of Bethel Church in Redding CA, wrecks me every time I find myself in the same place: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-vjd6LJFi0
ReplyDeleteShe wrote that song right after becoming a new mom after spending a lot of time leading worship and writing songs and just singing and dancing before the Lord. The version she sang at Grace Center in Franklin (my church fellowship for the past 10 years) is here (no video--just the song): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6peho09GVo&feature=related.
ReplyDeleteThank you Lori!
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